Sometimes I feel like I’m living somewhere between the constant battle of my mind and my heart. Everything I want and desire seems to be what’s wrong for me.. What makes me happy and at ease has the ability to tear me apart. I try and balance it out, weigh out the good and the bad, and I always end up doing exactly what my heart wants instead of whats really good for me. I’ve come to realize that even the things I love the most.. don’t always necessarily love me back in the same way. It’s a sad and scary thought… but at the same time it’s inevitable. I try and think in future terms, I try and keep in mind that everyone eventually finds their happiness. That may not be true, but the idea is like medicine for my soul. The thought that one day what you love will be loving you in the same exact way is ….comforting. Cause if thats true, then you don’t even gotta think about it, all you have to do is smile. Not a worry in the world.

Why can’t some things be guaranteed? Just some …